Sunday, 22 September 2019




                            
                                      The day i felt like attending a funeral.



I was getting back home in a bus after my work, as I was sitting by the window I see a funeral procession on the neighboring lane. I see this young girl sitting on the steps of the funeral wagon, the way she was sitting in that entire scheme caught my interest, I thought I should attend it. After a quick discussion with my saner part I decided to join the march, with an added intention of getting ideas for a film story, a picture or at least the mood which can put me in a creative trip.  
I joined the march, I started to track the procession by taking pictures. My other dimension started to protest my actions; it raised questions against my sensitivity, my humanity index. I continued, unaffected by the questions posed by my sensitive dimension.
We all reached the burial ground, to my amazement the burial ground was very much present within the living society, peaceful, Camouflaged like a park clad with an immodest silence. Speaking metaphysically, for me the cemetery looked like an enlightened hermit sitting there, and all the dead men go to him seeking peace and knowledge about their identity. I was now constantly prodded by my guilt nerve for not reciprocating with respect for the dear departed. 

When I took this picture, the  funeral conductor(foreground- left) was about to perform a ritual for the deceased, he instructed the girl to light few camphors for the idol and dictated a verse  for her to repeat after him. The funeral conductor's formidable intent was new to me, his instruction hits you like a dart.

As the ritual went by, a mourner with extreme contempt asked me to put away my phone. 



"A friend asked, was my intention of getting into a creative pursuit satisfied after the funeral?? 
I think, i taught myself to detach from emotions, it'll help me to bring out the reality mixed up with intense human emotions, thus aiming for a  greater good. "




Tuesday, 1 January 2019






A notice to my exhibition.







FROM SEMMENCHERY is a photography exhibition i attended  with my friends. The exhibits were the photographs of three sophomore boys of  visual communication, they showed everyday mundane yet intricate details of  people's lives in their neighborhood. We saw the picture's nuances coming out of it's closet as the photographers explained.Every raw and organic affair in  people's daily life was beautifully portrayed.

"The discreet charm of the locale captured by the young students are aimed to beat the tall wall of  prejudice held up against their neighbourhood".

After spending two hours at the exhibition with the prospective photographers.

A blanket of intimidation with a stench of guilt wrapped me.I was all praises for the cause of our young photographer's here. The efforts they had put to walk out from a realm of  reasons, to not to be- they came out to be the ones to shout out loud about their exceptional work with an exclusive sense of pride.Those students are not from a well off background, they did not attend the first class education like me and my friends here, they didn't have a proud neighbourhood to tell. They just chose to be the exceptional one by believing in the beauty of their ambitions and reasons.


I am constantly in guilt when i see people showing a tough fight to scale their dreams without falling prey to their challenging schedules of their life's dynamics. On the same page you can see me sitting  here just whining without working for the cause i desire to be. So i am planning a virtual Photography exhibition on this blog update as a tiny part of my fight to scale up my dreams amidst all challenges i face in my life.




Conversation.



                                     a bath.

    Aandal, the young elephant of Sri Ranganadha Swamy temple in Trichy. 















Aandal was getting ready when i saw her. Her pagan(Tamil word for Mahout) is a Malayali from Thrissur district of Kerala. He looked like a strict father while giving Aandal a bath. A bath, is a fanfare event, everyone just stops by for sometime to see Aandal getting her bath. H
er decorations you see around her eyes was drawn by her pagan. He scolds her whenever she moves or disturbs the  moment, he made her decorations using a wet chalk piece.  

I tried to bring up a conversation with Aandal's pagan, but didn't last for long he was immersed in the process of making Aandal. 


I believe the Pagan's reservations for Aandal has influenced the composition of the picture. 





                                                                         Tambaram market, Chennai.



I got this picture from Tambaram market, Chennai. I skipped a job interview to roam the market. These were the very initial days of me learning just to walk without an expectation, also by not letting down my hope and patience on the route of finding my picture. 

I got tired from walking the market, thoughts of getting back home came running to my head, it's only then i walked into this yellow tent. I didn't notice the yellow ceiling above my head, the hanging big-shopper bag caught my attention first. I stood there, i knew i have my picture here, i also remembered to control my excitement so that i don't miss my moment. I stood there calmly...took my phone out slowly clicked the camera icon...lifted my hands to click in the entire scheme of colours in front of me.




         The ran away kitten.



This cat's ears will look pink when light hits on it's surface. He was a month old cat when I got this picture, he is always with his mother. I remember this day, i woke up after everyone in my home left for their day, I saw this kitten and his mom drinking milk-water from the bowl my mom had reserved for them. My mom before attending us attends the cats and two crow's who generally visit her in morning, the crows still visit my mom even though the cats ran away. The crows established a friendship with my mom, they still pay her a visit every morning.




  
cousin.
























Hi this here is Athma Maria, she's my cousin.We were waiting for a juice to come. She is shy when she is asked to pose for a picture or  asked  for a song to sing. I like this picture, I think it is her eye that's appealing.















                                                                      No place to fit in.





A view to a traffic from the inside of a crowded  bus. The best part of our work is that the work is not tough yet, it is the traffic involved during the pilgrimage give us the shiver. I always wonder, all the time we had saved by just tapping our credit or debit cards on the point of sale machine in those coffee shops or the time we saved by tapping on a techie watch to look who had called to our cell phone instead of  pulling it out from our pockets was precisely to deliver us to the traffic front.




Faith hours.
























This is my father, he generally has a not so long or not so quick prayer hours. I got this picture on a Sunday evening. During his prayer hour he turns off all lights and collects us to attend the prayer.








                                                      umbrellas don't go in a straight line.



This is my uncle, I and my uncle were walking along a lane. This little lane had a steep topography. I was standing at the highest point of the curve. It was raining, the view I saw there was a street full of umbrellas and many beautiful young women incompletely drenched. At this point I was able to anticipate my picture, I just aligned myself with the moment and started to roll.




  The music is here.



This is Athma again, we were on our way back home. She was seen enjoying the music blowing in the wind    - snap- a picture.





   faith in busses-1










This is a procession led by communist party of Kerala. Where ever there is a bus, a flag, a procession, there is a picture too.







                                                                     faith in busses-2



Hey, this picture is an outcome of the communist party's procession. This old pappa was my passenger in the bus. As you see he is also getting tired with the traffic.


No he was not posing for me.





                                                                                Reasons to loathe

















This one here is a view to a rainy day in Kollam, Kerala. This is my window in a lodge i lived for a while. This is an okayish picture- as a friend of mine quoted. I don't know, sometimes I only like to take pictures whose details are mundane and aesthetically dumb . I definitely like beauty- I think it's the sadness and ugliness provide the space for the beauty to appear beautiful.

-I was in a ugly mood while writing this.








                                                                         Just like that.



a girl eating at Guindy Railway station,Chennai.









As you can see, this is a little girl eating after a rain. You ask me what's the point- nothing special, i think it is just a smart little girl making hay before the sun runs out, meanwhile others are still busy figuring it out. 







                                                                       Mom and Dad.




  My mom and my dad. 







When time didn't provide.



If you are an Indian with a little awareness of some important schemes of India, with a little knowledge in Hindi & English language, you may presumably connect the dots in the picture too. Unfortunately or fortunately the woman with her child trying to climb a bus didn't make it clear in the picture.




  faith in buses- a working man.


He was yawning, just yawning inside a bus during a night ride. No more stories please, he says i think.




a paper shop in mono.


This is a paper shop in Hospett bus stand, Karnataka. Actually this is an inspired picture. There are a tonne of beautiful pictures i would like to reprise, this is one of them. I think it is possible for me, i should just be permeable to my environment and continue taking pictures.




        I took this picture in a small restaurant  in Hampi, Karnataka.



I just don't know what to say for this picture. This is a lovely little restaurant in Hampi, it had couple of murals on it's wall like the interesting one you see behind the man. I should just thank the lady passing by and the thinking man, they lured me into choosing this picture so that i would put it up here.





At Tambaram Railway station.


This is a picture of two old women selling fruits at the railway station, the frame you see in the picture are my fingers i placed on my camera intending to give it some kind of a feel.
      I got this picture while i was waiting for Prashanth anna at Tamaram railway station, he is a nice friend.



                                                   At The Chennai Photo Biennale,2019.



Raghu Rai, at the Chennai photo biennale. He is India's mirror, he reflected whatever the situation gave him. All his encounters with the reality gave him a formidable man's stature.  



A morning tale. 



This is my mom's fancy mirror in our kitchen. This is her latest morning picture. With all the rim lighting our east facing kitchen would look brilliant in the mornings, wonderfully lit by the sun god himself. 
My mom's rich skin tone adds more drama to the morning tale of a wonderfully lit kitchen. 



         Tailor Shop




This picture is a tailor Shop in Pazhavanthangal, Chennai. This busy tailor and his tailor shop at the street's corner influenced me in taking this picture.




Two men, two pillars and good lighting.



This picture is from Eekatuthangal metro station, Chennai. This place has good features, all it's rugged finish pillars with a warm halogen lighting . I thought it'd be nice if I had someone to stand for a picture, then these men came by. I asked them can you stand for a picture, they said it'd be cool if i could contribute for their booze for the day. They stood for couple of pictures and I paid for their party!! as a token of gratitude.

   I got a sense of  pride after paying them, it helped me convince to accept the artist in me. I think they would have Toasted my name. Cheers.. 





A rain, after a long time.




Our Chennai city saw its first rain after a dry spell of 194 record days.  This is the tent of  our neighborhood's iron man, the shop keeper generally closes his shop while i am getting back from my job. This rainy day, the shop was open with it's light on just for me to take a picture of  it in this style. The fact is, it'll be just me who'd have seen this shop in this combination among million other textures of permutation. 
One day i will show this combination of the tent to the iron man and say, your tent can look like this also.





    The day i felt like attending a funeral.



I was getting back home in a bus after my work, as I was sitting by the window I see a funeral procession on the neighboring lane. I see this young girl sitting on the steps of the funeral wagon, the way she was sitting in that entire scheme caught my interest, I thought I should attend it. After a quick discussion with my saner part I decided to join the march, with an added intention of getting ideas for a film story, a picture or at least the mood which can put me in a creative trip.  
I joined the march, I started to track the procession by taking pictures. My other dimension started to protest my actions; it raised questions against my sensitivity, my humanity index. I continued, unaffected by the questions posed by my sensitive dimension.
We all reached the burial ground, to my amazement the burial ground was very much present within the living society, peaceful, Camouflaged like a park clad with an immodest silenceSpeaking metaphysically, for me the cemetery looked like an enlightened hermit sitting there, and all the dead men go to him seeking peace and knowledge about their identity. I was now constantly prodded by my guilt nerve for not reciprocating with respect for the dear departed. 

When I took this picture, the  funeral conductor(foreground- left) was about to perform a ritual for the deceased, he instructed the girl to light few camphors for the idol and dictated a verse  for her to repeat after him. The funeral conductor's formidable intent was new to me, his instruction hits you like a dart.


"A friend asked, was my intention of getting into a creative pursuit satisfied after the funeral?? 
I think, i taught myself to detach from emotions, it'll help me to bring out the reality mixed up with intense human emotions, thus aiming for a  greater good. "



                                                                 In between the hours.


This is me,my mom and my brother waiting for a train. This is how we looked like in the between hours of our life. We met after our day to see off a relative who visited for Onam. We were drained after the day and just wanted to get back home.



Another Little personal moment that caught my eye



"Sleepy leaves seldom look alive"

This is a nice spot I found at my brother's construction site. This picture was taken during the golden hour, so the characters in the pictures may appear asleep.

thanks for now.

Wednesday, 21 November 2018

                                                                       


state

I am a confused boat lying by the shore,no one stops by to travel along as I am a confused boat.


But one stops by to check the boat and it's confusion and decides to ride on, as I am a confused boat.

He rides on the confused boat confused about the confusion of the boat as I am a confused boat.

Rider rides on the confusion of the confused boat desiring to decode the confusion,as it is a confused boat.

As rider rides on the confusions of the confused boat the rider gets to know the confusions are the links to a new realm of permutation, the confusion was an oar to a new realm.









I photographed the picture, so don't download it and use it, as i am a confused boat.

Saturday, 16 June 2018

Is a religious smoker a result of Myelination of neural pathways?

   

                                     Is a religious smoker a result of Myelination of neural pathways ?



2016 film:My entire high school is sinking into the sea.
               


The brain cells contain millions of neurons. A neuron consists of Dendrites, Cell body, Axon covered by layers of Myelin Sheath and Nerve ending.

Function of a neuron- To transmit neural impulses.

Myelination of neural pathways- Axon is covered by layer of Myelin Sheath.
The cross-sectional diameter of an axon is important determinat of impulse propagation, “the larger the diameter, the greater the velocity of propagation”.

My Understanding-:
When we practice a concept, activities in the brain also tunes in. As we practice, that particular impulse flow in brain cell goes on in a repeat mode thus resulting in the enlargement of Myelin Sheath’s diameter. As per the physics of brain biology- larger the diameter of the Myelin Sheath the speed of impulse transfer is mightier. The high velocity of the impulses in neurons has to be credited to our rigorous jamming sessions eventually finishing of with a brilliant performance.


                                                     To the drama:

One of our characters has been enlightened with this thought. He strikes out a conversation as he is going out in a car with his friends.

‘Enlightened friend’- E.friend.

E.friend- Hii guys does anyone know what happens in our brain when we practice something? Do you know how are we able to put up with a great show after a drill?

Friend 2- Don’t know brother. Why don’t you explain it for yourself?

Friend 3(Driver)-  “Mr. Know all show”.

E.friend- Shut upp! It is actually interesting. Listen up guys.

Friends- Yes sir! Yes sir!!

E.friend- I presume you all know that brain cells consists of neurons. For those who are unaware, Brain cell consists of neurons. There are millions of them, their function is to transport electrical impulses or information. A typical neuron cell consist of A cell body, Dendrites, Axon which is wrapped by a layer of Myelin sheath and the nerve ending.

Friend 3- Fuck!! I’m already sleeping.

E.friend- Bro! c’mon, the dope part is about to come.
Friend 2- Sure! Sure!!

E.friend- Thank you. So where were we? Yah the nerve endings. So this is the thing, the Axon is wrapped by few layers of Myelin Sheath. This Myelin Sheath also ensures the transportation of the impulses. As the Myelin Sheath bulks up in its diameter, the velocity of the flow of impulses also increases. As we practice more, the diameter of Myelin Sheath bulks up. That is how one ends up stealing his show. 

Friend 4(shot gun)- hi this is cool actually.

E.friend- Didn’t I tell you, hmm Thanks to me.

After some time.

Friend 4- Hi, E.friend. I had a thought now.

E.friend- What thought? Is it related to that Myelination?

Friend 4- Yes. As we practice an activity our body sends impulses relating to that activity. As we repeat the activity, the same practice of that impulse transportation is happening in our head repeatedly.

E.friend- Yes.

Friend 4- So, more that activity more the bulking of Myelin Sheath, resulting in information transfer at greater velocities.

E.friend- Precise.

Friend 4- I was thinking about those intricate activities, like thinking about good things, like talking to friends about good and progressive topics and anything apart from physical activity.
Do all these intricate activities bulk up our Myelin Sheath? Eventually all those good things we thought and discussed, will it have a chance to become our kind of force majeure?? What do you think?

E.friend- Woa! Mmm!!? Perhaps. But force majeure? What do you mean by force majeure?

Friend 4- Ok, lets take this for an instance-A person is so passionate about cinema he thinks about it all the time, discusses cinema with people when ever they hang out. Now tell me this, does all those small scale and non-physical parameters become a reflex action for the person.
Friend 4- Or take this, a bunch of friends like us. They talk all good n great things, they think about worldly issues and solutions, they talk art and poetry, they just think and talk. All those thinkie n talkie sessions they had, would it get registered? Does it result in the bulking of Myelin Sheath? 
Will those sessions register and result in becoming a reflex action when they are in crisis situation?

E.friend- Ha-ha. Brother, nice. Genuinely nice. I think I can see some existential rant too. 
I would like to recall a fact I read in an article- we received our genes from our forefathers. All the trauma, vital and life changing circumstances they experienced are recorded in a gene. 

So what I’m meaning to say is that all those trauma and situations our forefathers walked through were recorded in a gene and were passed on. All those trauma and situation they went through is proven to have an influence in our decisions. 
Hence we can conclude that our individual thoughts can have a potential to be our own force majeure. Yeah why not I guess.

Friend 4- Mmm. Now I’m also positive about it I guess.

E.friend- So where are we upto guys? What is the agenda for our lives from now?

Friend 3- I think we’ll just concentrate on the ride.

Friend 2- Is religious smoking because of Myelin sheath bulking up?